Snows Melt.

Dreams are just like snow

beautiful as you see it fall elegantly

as pure as the color itself

but melted the moment it touches heat.

and evaporates into air

and vanishes right in front of your sights.

there goes the cycle

people starting to dream again

might be the same

might be the different one.

May your dreams come true.

basically, i am still holding to the dreams that we used to visualize

it was beautiful and honestly it were close to perfect

thats probably the basic element of everyone's dream i guess

I really did work hard to fullfill our dreams

but i guess i expect too much from myself

bare with all the burden, emotions, works, responsibility myself.

i never really did voice it out to anyone

as i dont wanna mess up with others life with my problems

just the same to you

i never want you to feel bad with disappointment i had in me

i never want you to worried with my works as i know you are tired with yours

i never want you to carry part of the burden i carried

i really had the only intention just to make you happy without any hesitation

*as long as you are happy*

this is what i said everytime we made a decision or you asked me whether Im fine with it.

i really put in alot effort into it just to see you smile

even if i dont feel good about something i will still accepted in some sense and smiled at you telling you everything is alright.

I dont know since when

i had the feeling that im not appreciated

no matter what i do

you will somehow tend to show me perfunctory in you

through you did show it through words

but the way you act just somehow telling me different story

maybe since then

i do focus on my own life more

thought we were heading to a new stage in our relationship

and i guess im too used to it.

but you werent.

and with the burden i had with me

i guess thats when i started to less pay attention on you

and you felt ignored.

Reading back all the msgs before things happened

I smiled

followed by tears.

recalling all the touched moment

it was beautiful as if it only happen in drama series.

but eventually it did happened between us

Frankly speaking, ya i miss you now when recalling all these memories.

but the dreams we had

had been slowly melting

and probably you had your new dreams with your new life

i guess,

is time for life changing decision.

with or without you

life goes on.

and i will let time do its job helping me to forget.