Wings

Just had this random thought

that people who left you

had wings you will never

thought and imagine of

during the first day u know them

I had been living in a environment

that my family are always heading overseas

at first

i can easily cried when i thought of them

not being by my side

cause i miss them like alot

but slowly

im adopting to it

thought I am immuned with people leaving

Until today

somehow i recall the moments

i cried for someone who left

doesnt matter

with or without consanguinity

I cried for them as i recall

I cant remember how long was it

the day my cousin bro

who was more like a uncle to me

as he was at the age around 45+

the day he passed away

he was humorous with his words

but there are hidden stories

that will inspire you when you realize

you will always smile and laugh

when listening to him talk

i saw my nephew was talking calmly with his friends

but i guess he had a hard time himself

before he left,

his dad who was my big uncle

left to a better place

due to illness he living with

i cried

as i never really spoken to him

ever since i was born

ironically

he just live behind my house

and i never did spoke to him

and i dont think i seen him face to face as well

i dont know why but i sobbed

Till then

she left by my side

no one to blame

but myself for my mistakes

although happened to be true

that

we both did many mistakes that cause misunderstanding

and responsible for the mistakes

i always laughed

when there is this scene

someone cried badly because of another half

thinking it was somehow exaggeration

you know, effects to attract audiences

i never thought that

i will happened to be like in the movies or dramas

cried for someone that badly

believe me, its bad

that moment of time

you just somehow felt suffocating

not convincing?

wait till you found someone you really care

after around 2 months

few friends of mine had been to overseas

all of them play futsal together every saturday

one, will randomly invite people to his house for liquors

one, will be asking you to head to the gym together

one, had known you approx 10 years and brotherly

one, also known for approx 10 years and sorry i din make it for the farewell

and you wont be seeing them around few years

or once after many months when they come back during their long break

you will miss them in some sense

as you were attached to them with your or their life.

the next day u woke up

something is missing when you are aware of it

yea, someone wasnt there for you

after going to so many farewells

there are some with bunch of friends

and some simply just had their families to send them off

i wonder

if i happen to heading to overseas

well, i do have that chance before

but i gave up because of her

back to the topic

if i am really heading to overseas

how many of my friends will appear the moment before i left

who will be missing me when i left

or who might even cry when i left?

is just the same when i thought

when i was far far away

you know what i mean

what will happen and etcetera

For the ones who had someone that left them here

just continue have the faith in them

that they really do wish to be at your side no matter what circumstances

hold to your heart

and believe that they will come back for you.

just stay strong

and live happily.